So, im feeling good tonight
im alone ive come to terms with that, i dare not say i wont relapse a handful more times but im ok!
Ive got someone who makes me happy, although at present the relationship is odd? but im me, and thats i need to remember, just trust myself and dnt take anything on faith from anyone else
the only person that can ensure things go smoothly is me , clear and in control of everything
im a good guy and i knw that, alot better then most although i do have my shortcomings and i regret them and what ive done to this world but hopefully i can make up for it.
Im going to buy my couch cover, thatll make me feel better too! not having a couch thats been effed up by other people. indeed!
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Meeeeoooowwwwwww! =) Im ugly
but thats beside the point once again im afraid i fell off the wagon so to speak and stopped with these ramblings, im afraid u really cant blame me though.
Alot has happened since last i put my thoughts down. Ive left mckenzie for good that verbally abusive bulldog servicing Sasquatch can find her own damn way in life absent of me as a partner.
I am however with Akira now, Mckenzie has fallen into a drug induced shit spiral as i always suspected she would. the shit vultures are circling riding high on the thermals of shit awaiting their next meal and i can only hope they end up eating their fill
Pap Johns is still a poorly managed cesspool which i do not much care for, I'm still in school, probability, developmental economics, and history. in fact as i write this I'm in probability.
Oh Dear = 0 im afraid i havent been rambling much have i? more recounting things that have happened.
if everyone could see the splendor that is a cat wearing a cute little froggy costume would war still happen?
would we still be invading lybia if gadhafi has taken the time to parade such an infinitely cute symbol in front of his people and use it as a symbol of his regime?
Japan is fucked as well, completely, magnitude 9 earthquake? Tsunami? failing nuclear reactors? they will be fine they r the god damn japanese, people know internationally for their devotion to morality and yet their depravity? duality oh yess!
Mr. josh from my group in probability dropped out of school due to illness how horrid, i should think if such a thing were to happen to me i would just kill myself i can hardly bear being a semester behind in school, i cant imagine the feelings of wanton disappointment that would come with being completely out of it, i really would probably kill myself, my self worth shifts alot these days
one day i feel like a god come to earth, and the other im afraid to leave the house for fear of ridicule and embarrassment, then the next im lost in an infinitely deep and black swirling vortex of sadness and anger threatening to drag me down to its depths if i merely but misstep near its edge.
i really dont know what to do with my life currently im so lost, dirtbikeless and such
i have alot of money saved up but now that mckenzie left ill have to use it all on the apartment which means ill live in the place alone and isolated from the world but ill also use up most of my money. i dnt like this idea, but the alternative???? live with my parents, a godawful fate i would not wish upon myself, im too old for that is all
i cant keep going back
well everyones starting to file in so i guess ill stop this now though i cant say i really want to
im just going to go read some news
night night snugglemuffin miss =)
but thats beside the point once again im afraid i fell off the wagon so to speak and stopped with these ramblings, im afraid u really cant blame me though.
Alot has happened since last i put my thoughts down. Ive left mckenzie for good that verbally abusive bulldog servicing Sasquatch can find her own damn way in life absent of me as a partner.
I am however with Akira now, Mckenzie has fallen into a drug induced shit spiral as i always suspected she would. the shit vultures are circling riding high on the thermals of shit awaiting their next meal and i can only hope they end up eating their fill
Pap Johns is still a poorly managed cesspool which i do not much care for, I'm still in school, probability, developmental economics, and history. in fact as i write this I'm in probability.
Oh Dear = 0 im afraid i havent been rambling much have i? more recounting things that have happened.
if everyone could see the splendor that is a cat wearing a cute little froggy costume would war still happen?
would we still be invading lybia if gadhafi has taken the time to parade such an infinitely cute symbol in front of his people and use it as a symbol of his regime?
Japan is fucked as well, completely, magnitude 9 earthquake? Tsunami? failing nuclear reactors? they will be fine they r the god damn japanese, people know internationally for their devotion to morality and yet their depravity? duality oh yess!
Mr. josh from my group in probability dropped out of school due to illness how horrid, i should think if such a thing were to happen to me i would just kill myself i can hardly bear being a semester behind in school, i cant imagine the feelings of wanton disappointment that would come with being completely out of it, i really would probably kill myself, my self worth shifts alot these days
one day i feel like a god come to earth, and the other im afraid to leave the house for fear of ridicule and embarrassment, then the next im lost in an infinitely deep and black swirling vortex of sadness and anger threatening to drag me down to its depths if i merely but misstep near its edge.
i really dont know what to do with my life currently im so lost, dirtbikeless and such
i have alot of money saved up but now that mckenzie left ill have to use it all on the apartment which means ill live in the place alone and isolated from the world but ill also use up most of my money. i dnt like this idea, but the alternative???? live with my parents, a godawful fate i would not wish upon myself, im too old for that is all
i cant keep going back
well everyones starting to file in so i guess ill stop this now though i cant say i really want to
im just going to go read some news
night night snugglemuffin miss =)
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