June 11th

What monotony this job makes me put up with.
I cant believe that the majority of the human populace lives their every day like this
i should think if my days were consumed by nothing mroe then this horrendous "filing"
that i should live a decidedly short life.
Never to see the mountains, sweeping vistas, high peaks, the oceans depths
opting instead to live within a manmade shell of plasteer and cement.
yet this is how people live and so am i different form them in the fact that i am so extremely
discontent with this way of life?
or does everyone feel this way and they just put up with it and push it aside?
am i being childish to wish all this away, to wish for a more symplistic life of experience and fulfillment?


the conclusion i keep reaching is that most people must feel this way and that it is just my wander lust
of youth which makes me so yearn to escape.
i imagine that will fade as i grow older and i will be more content to become a member of the populace,but
that is why great things must be started young!

I dont want to be another blended uninteresting man shopping at the nearest grocery store and being content
to watch tv and talk to my bland emotional wife all in the name of stability and peace.
I want excitement , travel, experience. i want to see what the world can offer, and then pick that
choice which best fits. A settled life and wife would seem fine then i should think, but acheiving this
level of settlement without first experiencing life seems a tragedy.