I dont pretend to be unique, i like to think my eccentricities set me apart somewhat as is also the case with most people...? So the fact that they set me apart means im really still part of the norm, how joyous. But ones own journey through life is undoubtably there own no matter how alike they may be to their peers.
Its been a long tome since i left that terrible situation with mckenzie and heaped my hopes and a myriad of other things onto poor hip 18 year old Akira. Things have gone well, things have gone not so well, theres been pain and hurt on both sides but also joy and happiness.
Everything thats happened since that evening when i got an alarming phone call whilst sitting in my dorm room, jobless and fixated on the idea of wandering and just experiencing has shaped me both the failures and the successes (though god knows how many of those there have been). Ive learned to value what makes life important, and to try and keep in my head that we are all thinking feeling passionate people when dealing with any problems that i may face, stepping back and looking at things objectively and weighing the importance of everything is an empowering thing to do and its how i try to function when i can, Ive strayed from that mindset, i surely have but im back to it, FINALLY.
But im confused, is there a human being out there who isnt? Akira and i are getting married, for real, the planning has commenced, and i can see us being together forever , happy, building a family, but i can also see the vast array of ways this can go down badly, and having faith that none of those will come to pass and ruin the beautiful thing we have is trying, its just nervousness, being so close to something so important how can you mot doubt its actual fulfillment?
Akira and i have grown, we've changed ourselves, our lives have changed, and we've changed each other as well, but i still cant manage to not feel a rush of love and affection whenever i stare into her beautiful eyes thinking of being completely open with just her to share my life with her as she chooses to do the same, to have found someone like that and for it to be her is an indescribable feeling. Though our bodies may change i pray our souls never will, May this feeling never fade. I wouldnt try to express how Akira feels, i can only hope its of equal intensity and filled with the hope for a happy future as well.
The ramble is finished, but may we never be finished ourselves.
Tl:dr go read any sappy description of an engaged couples relationship,youll get the point :3
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